Suicide is not an option .
Help is available.
Yes I have said it, we lost another part of our community last week and reading the comments people keep mentioning suicide, l don’t know the cause of death but I know that Lara Henderson was loved.
I have considered this option to many times to mention and this will probably shock a lot of my friends & family because I have never had enough courage to speak up. The reason I write this isn’t for attention.
Every single person who reads this will have had a bad day , they could have money issues, relationship breakups , loss of a loved one . I have had all of that , I also have Severe ME.
I have lost my dignity , my self-confidence , My Daughter now helps me dress , My Husband has to help me to the bathroom and on top of that I have pain so severe that I can’t think straight. I go to Drs appointments for an illness that can’t be cured . I daily feel like I am losing my mind and still there is the worst pain you could ever believe .
Think of the worst flu you have ever had , the type of flu that makes you hair hurt, you feel pain in your fingers and toes, when you get cold and your hair stands up on end that hurts. You get headaches that won’t go , it hurts to open your eyes, noise hurts somehow . You can’t eat because your mouth hurts , my tongue swells so badly that I can’t speak. You get so cold it feels uncomfortable but then as quickly you can be so hot that you sweat. You can’t sit up without help , you can’t lie down without help. Your insides hurt , if your muscles cramp that’s hurts too. All of that doesn’t even really scrape the surface.
You feel a failure , I am no longer a Wife & Mother. I have no career . ME took all of that.
The reason why I am speaking out is that I can’t lose anyone else. I have made so many friends since I have had ME , every single message and email that I get affects me so much and pushes me to share my story in the hope that it makes a difference. The reason I write this blog and have set up my YouTube channel isn’t for fame or money it is so that I never have to read of another suicide. ME takes too much. It has taken too much from every single one of you reading this and it has to stop .
Together we can make a difference and I know that is not going to be easy. I promise that I will do all I can in the hope that one day soon your life will be different.
I can’t take away your bad days and I can’t take away your pain but I can be there for you. All I ask is that if you are feeling bad and you are having dark thoughts that you speak up, I beg you.
We have a support group that is growing every day. That support extends to your partners and your children. We understand.
Please speak out , I can’t , We can’t go on losing people in our community. Together we can make a difference.
The ME Association offer a help line.
ME Connect – Telephone and Email Helplines
The ME Association’s information and support service is open every day of the year from 10am-12noon, 2pm-4pm and 7pm-9pm. All conversations are treated in the stri
Telephone: 0844 576 5326 to speak to one of our fully-trained volunteers.
Email: meconnect@meassociation.org.uk
Please Note:
The cost of calls to 0844 numbers are determined by your telephone provider. Please check your contract for charging details. The service charge is 7p a minute – from which the MEA receives 3p – plus your provider’s access charge. Calls from mobiles and other devices can be considerably more expensive than from a landline.
My family offer our support
Message me directly
If your husband/wife or partner are finding this tough they can message My Hubby Graham
If you think this is affecting your children and they need to speak to someone who has gone through this , they can message Rebecca , Our Daughter
These email accounts are monitored throughout the day. Don’t forget that we will be having our very first Liverpool Support Group meeting very soon.
If you are unable to make the meeting and you want to chat face to face then you can FaceTime me at alishawhittam@sky.com. I will set up a Skype account shortly so that is an option too .
You can of course FaceTime me anytime you need to talk , if I don’t respond straight away it means that I am having a bad day and I am most likely to be asleep. I will always get back to you.
I am really looking forward to meeting you all . We have so much to look forward to .
I am always here x
Love always x
Alisha x x